I was born and raised in Winnipeg, Manitoba; my parents always reminded me that as a young black woman, I would have to work harder than everyone else because of my race and my gender. As much as I appreciated them preparing me for the tough world out there, it jaded me.
It made me come out with an attitude and a built-in anger I didn’t even realize I had until I was well into my 30s.
Now this ambition, drive and 'no one can tell me NO!' attitude was great when it came to sports, school and working my way up the corporate ladder. Especially when I decided to leave the corporate environment to do my own thing. But it hasn’t served me well for relationships and finding love.
On the other hand I see a lot of black males with the same anger and drive. But while it serves them well in attracting women because it is a “manly” trait it can be a disservice in the corporate world in which they have to adapt.
I see the same pattern in some of my friends, acquaintances and mentees. They tend to fall into two extremes:
Nobody can tell me NO! Like myself. The no nonsense, almost stereotypical, hard working, doesn’t need anyone, unemotional person always competing with everyone.
Don’t want to be the stereotype: So you’ll say yes to everything and be a doormat as long as no one can put that stereotype label on you or drop you in the same bucket you clawed your way out of, stepping on heads to get out. They do their best to keep the peace.
But are either of these ‘types’ happy? Number one is a bottle of soda that just needs one more shake to explode, while number two is most likely sitting alone with a fake smile on their face in a crowded room.
What does this have to do with fitness you ask? Absolutely nothing. But it does have to do with health and wellness.
I have spent the winter of 2014/15 taking courses, reading and doing seminars working on my personal development. I took a course called Soul Level Love with Kavita J. Patel to help me get a better understanding of self and to learn how to accept love.
I took another course on self-esteem and body image to help me understand my insecurities and my client’s insecurities and how to deal with them.
I also volunteered to do a SplitVerseFIT workshop for a group of teenage girls. I volunteer regularly as a Big Sister with Big Sisters of Canada. My assigned Little Sister was coming with me as my assistant so that she could get her hours in.
That is actually how the whole idea started. I found myself so nervous going in to do the workshop, mainly because teenagers are a tough crowd. But also because I had just come back from a funeral in Winnipeg for my dad’s youngest brother. As sad as funerals are I always take two positives out of them: they bring family together and they put things in perspective.
The family part was great while I was there but I came home even sadder because I realized how much I was missing that in my life and it reminded me to refocus my energies on my Love work.
And as for putting things in perspective I realized how much what I do as a fitness and wellness coach means in this world. And so I focused my workshop with these girls on one major area that I wish I had more of when I was growing up.
PRAISE & ENCOURAGEMENT
My parents were very strict as were a lot parents who immigrated to Canada. When I got an A, they wanted an A+, when I did get an A+ they didn’t celebrate it because I was just finally doing what I was supposed to be doing. I don’t blame my parents, though for a long time I blamed them for everything wrong with my life.
I know and understand now through my personal development that they were just doing the best that they could, as the majority of parents do. They were in a new country and put a lot of pressure on themselves to create a better life. They were trying to give us all the things they never had.
For the teenage girls in the workshop, I created a game around complimenting each other. In the game they had to compliment another girl on their appearance; naming two or three things that they liked about their looks. We did this one at a time in front of everyone.
Young people are bombarded with so much negative media messaging, I just wanted them to put a little positivity into their day. At the end of the game I asked them how they felt when they received and when they gave the compliments. They all agreed that it made them feel so good to make another girl smile and to learn that another girl though she had beautiful hair, or legs or eyes.
At the end of the workshop I gave them an assignment. All they had to do was give one person a day (a different person each day) a compliment about their appearance. They were instructed not to tell them why, just give the compliment and smile.
When I left I was unsure that they were going to do it the assignment, but I walked away feeling satisfied that I had tried to do something.
After the workshop I took my Little Sister and her friend to grab a bite to eat. As we sat there in the food court of a local mall, I listened to them excitedly contemplate who they were going to compliment first when they got to school the next day.
I swear my heart nearly burst out of my chest.
There is no better feeling in the world than feeling like you did SOMETHING!
Corinne Bailey Rae has a verse in the song “Love’s on it’s way” that goes:
I want to be able to say that I did more then pray,
I did more than just spend my money,
just writing letters, just going out marching,
I did more than talking, saying the right thing, wearing the right thing,
time for an uprising.
Love’s on its way…
Hope it won’t be too late.
Purpose in life is what inspires me to get out of bed and strive everyday. What is your purpose, what is that SOMETHING that you can do for your uprising?
With Positive Purpose,